Kayden Day 51

Afternoon naps

This is the scene every weekday afternoon when he naps...

Kayden Day 50

Baobei doesnt like to sit in his pram... why? Hard to always carry him when bringing him out. Sighz.

Today noon went AMK hub as usual with baobei mama. Bought 2 nice jackets, lactation cookies, water bottle, etc. And carry back like mad. Anyway i think i am strong. Haha

Should i still bf? After so many weeks of pumping, i decided to try latch on back tml morning. Nicole says it helps. And i started on the fenugrèek since she says it shows improvement after a week. She can pump 200ml.... whereas the least i can get is 20ml and the most is 60ml (so far 2 times only) & average is 40ml.

I envy those mummies whom can exclusive bf. But also tiring cuz babies easily get hungry with bf. My record for formula interval is 3hours plus. I doubt bf can do it so long.

Sighz. So should i still continue after i resume back to work?

Anyway i will try to latch on and consume the lactation cookies, mother's milk tea and fenugreek. Still if i can at least hit 80ml nxt week?

Now baobei is aslp... last fed at 9.45pm... should be up again in 2hrs time (hopefully 3hrs) and the routine starts again.

I wonder when can sleep thru the night.

I miss royce choco chips ..... like suddenly... can i have 20boxes ans slowly eat? Hehe... $15 x 20boxes.

Anyway daddy is down with flu and aslp after work and dnr at 8.30pm till now. Hopes he get well soon.

At NBR House over the weekend...

i think i found a way to keep him upright after feed and at the same time not hurting his spine. The best is i think he likes this position too... hurray...

Kayden Day 46

Today went to visit great grandma....

Kayden Day 45

PD checkup today.

Baby kayden weighs 4.8kg & 54cm length.

Asked PD why he always have this Grouchy sound iszit bcuz of phlegm or wind in stomach. He said his lungs are clear and stomach wind is normal. The sound he said is not a problem. But he hear sound in the heart. Need to monitor and get the polyclinic to check if there is still sound.

How come i feel that this PD is not sure and like need polyclinic to double check. Sighz. Polyclinic chkup is on 3 Aug. One more week. Hope everything is alright.

Pray pray good health my baobei.

Birthday Wish

So whats for my birthday wish this year at the age of 31.....

I wish baby K grow up with good health, respect parents, good boy, sleep early, dont always so cranky, and lastly hope my husband take good care of himself because i will still wanna grow old together with him.

I love both my king and prince.

Pardon me for my mood swing at times bcuz i am really tired. I hope baby k grow up fast so that we can dont need to work guard duty at night.

Kayden Day 38

Sat was staying at NBR over the weekend. And this shall be the plan till i start work. The thing i like about NBR is that there is this big bed and big room. The thing i dont like is ants and lizard... basically cleanliness. Though i know they have tried their best, whenever i see anything dirty i will still clean it. Now cannot   睁一只眼闭一只眼 already.

My fear for the whole afternoon looking after baby k was alright afterall. Because daddy took good care of him most of the time and i had time to rest and lie on the big bed.

Baby k was cranky on the 2nd day aftenoon at NBR. Dunno why. Daddy carry him make him sleep put him on bed and he woke up again and the cycle repeat for the whole afternoon till evening he finally fall aslp and daddy dont even dare to put him on bed. Poor daddy had to carry him for an hour plus to make sure he had sufficient sleep.

And night guard duty was me whom took over from daddy because he had to work the following day. And the routine continues. Feed change pat burp.

Luckily i prepared hot water and everything in the room already so i dont even need to step out of the room except for the first feed that i need to take some milk bottles from the sterilizer.

All was well and minimised the crying so that wont make daddy wake up and disturb his beauty sleep. Told my body to rem to wake up in advance and my body did work well probably bcuz i had some rest in the noon.

Today back to amk hse and now i am sitting right infront of baby k bcuz he doesnt wanna slp even after diaper change burp and milk. Yawnz.

After baby k is out, i never had a chance to slp at 10pm beautifully till the next morning. And doing things is all according to his schedule. Eg, Bath whenever there is time and someone taking care of him. Eat only when time permits etc etc.

Well, i am now yawning away so does baby k.... he is tired i know but just dont wanna sleep...

night guard duty feeding

Just finished settling the feed. Today baby k overslept? He missed the 12am feed and only make noise at close to 2am. How i wish the interval every night is this long.. (4hrs).

Time check 2.55am. Have to prepare milk at 4am.

SLEEP...

Night guard duty routine

Just finished feeding him at 10pm. And now just settled down and lying on bed (time check 11pm).

Next feed have to wake up at 11.30pm to prepare milk in advance so that when he make noise (and not cry) the milk is ready.

I think the warmer bag really of a super good use.

He feeds better before he starts to cry.

Every interval is 2hrs. Every slp i can get in the interval is 1hr.

Will post when i finish feeding him the nxt feed.

Time check 11.11pm. SLEEP NOW!!

Kayden Day 29

Today should be finishing confinement already but i am still using herbal wash and eating confinement food. Sighz. When then really over?

But i had my hair washed today using the herbal. A good scrub to my scalp.

I think i need to go saloon have a really good scrub and blow straight dry...

phobia

I am having feeding phobia for now.....

Would u be able to come back in time before the nxt feed?

Cries....

Kayden Day 27

8.30pm baby k crying so i know its time for feeding. I prepared milk trying to feed him. He kept crying. Face turned so red. To a moment he cried till no voice and face turned to almost black. I am so scared. Didnt know what to do.

I feel so depressed and worried that i killed my own son.

How i wish u were beside me that time...

Sobbing....

I am just another useless mum.... i hate myself i hate my life now...