A role of a mother..... is to make sure u are doing good, ensure your well being, taking care of your needs, trying her best to satisfy your wants.
I did not receive all these since young, so i hope i can give my best as someone you will always call.... mommy, my kayden boy.
You were fussy last night. Refused to drink milk nor cereal. Not sure iszit because of the new lactose free milk powder which the PD prescribed. But i tried half serving of similac, u didnt want to drink too. U were crying on the bed. I carried you. You stopped crying. A moment later u started to cry again. I walked the whole hse. You were crying and screaming and scratching all over my face and arms.
I know you feel uncomfortable. But i dunno how else i can do to soothe you. I keep walking up and down the pace in the tiny kitchen and living room. You refused to sleep. We were perspiring. I on the aircon in the room. When we were in the room, u cried even louder. My heart sunk. I am not a good mommy. I dunno what to do to make u feel comfortable. All i know is i have to leave the room and continue walking. We continue to perspire. I carried you in my arms with a crampy empty stomach and a little migrain for an hour plus.
I saw u yawning. I know u are tired. I continued walking. U cried to sleep. My heartache. I saw u sleeping on my shoulders. I cried. A peaceful you, a crying me.
I am sorry, i made u cry to sleep for an hour plus.
I love you. I hope next time when you grow up, i can slp on your shoulders peacefully like how you used to slp on me.
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