Mommy Day 354

Who doesnt want to be a weekend parent whom only need to take care of bb only on weekends?

Everyday after a day of tiring work, have to spend time with bb and wash his bottles, toys and every little things is my daily routine be it weekday or weekend.

As a mommy, i dont grumble because he is my son whom i gone through painful process to have him delivered safely and even the after labour pain that torture me and that i wont forget.

I do not have someone to talk to before i go to bed. All i have is a keyboard and a screen = mobile phone.

Everyday i feel like a single mum. I rush here and there like a mad dog but nobody knows. Sometimes, i feel that i am only a human and all i want is to rest and have a good sleep. It is tough not to see the little one when u hear his cries every midnight. There is no midnight that i can sleep thru peacefully.

I know you are filial. But since i see my parents taking such good care of my boy, i wanted them to rest as much too. I wanted to treat them some nice food and just us but there isnt any day that i could accomplish that because the little one cant sit thru every meal. I wanted to be filial as well.

You have all the freedom to live like a single almost everyday. U can do things u wan, have peaceful sleep, plan ur own things, have a good meal with your mother. But what about me?

Our family is all tied down by the little one. Many things i wish to do but i cant do.

The least i could ask for is to spend time with them since its the last weekend in singapore. I dunno what will happen there. I may meet with a accident and never come back, there are many maybe's. That will be my greatest regret.

Worried about taking care of the little one alone there, who can comfort me? Little one,  please be good because i am surviving until today because of u.

Didnt want to express my thoughts but looks like nobody really understand what i am going thru.

I love you, my little one.

Kayden Day 328 - KKH High Fever 39.5 degrees

After eating the med by the PD, his fever is still not subsiding. In fact it is fluctuating. I am so worried. I wish i am the one who is having this high fever.

I have done all protection by washing his walker and all his toys everyday but still he is having infection in his throat.

Left work slightly earlier at 5pm and called kayden papa that his fever is very high and not subsiding at all. Kayden papa rushed bk to amk and i quickly took a cab back as well. I know i need to bring him to KKH no matter what bcuz i am so worried. I dunno whats wrong with him. The sudden fever. Must be somthing that activated it. In my heart i am thinking could be the 八字clash with the full month baby boy whom we attended on Sunday.

We shouldnt have brought him to the celebration at all. He anonymously had high fever that very night!

Reached KKH at 6pm. Nurse gave him a urine bag to collect his urine for lab test. He didnt want to pee for like the entire 3 to 4hours of wait. He didnt wan to drink his milk nor barley as well.

No choice. Doc say go back to collect sample and bring back within 2hrs of urine for lab test.

Doc only sees redness in his throat. The rest was all normal. He said after 5 days of fever then need to go back to take blood test. Is a prick on the little finger.

I pray and pray he will be fine by tml. Tml will be the 3rd day of fever already.

So he prescribed paracetmol and off we went.

Baby kayden boy is so tired that he fall aslp ij the car almost immediately.

When reached home, we changed him and standby the bottle to collect his urine direct flow. Yes, he peed after we remove the bag to collect his urine. I think he must be contollling his pee for the longest time.

Then with the fresh pee, we quickly went bk to KKH for the test while baby kayden sleep at home.

A long wait as usual about an hour to wait for the doc and result.

Doc sees the report and say it is normal. No infection. I was so relieved. I felt my heart not so heavy.

So we went home.

Now i have settled everything and finally on my bed.

I pray again for my baby kayden to recover asap get well soon and be your cheerful cheeky baby.

We love u and heartache for me to see u fever like this. :(

Kayden Day 327 - Very high fever 39.5

Sunday midnight My Kayden boy suddenly having high fever. Before he slp i already felt his neck warm but i thought its because he overplayed thats why he is hot.

Never i think that he is running a fever already. My poor boy. He cant sleep. Keep making sound and figeting and crying. At 2am kayden papa when to carry him and said he is very warm. Immediately i jumped out of my bed. Oh no. How.

Started to put koolpad and measure his temp. He is really warm on his little hands and legs and whole body. So we decided to give him the leftover paracetmol from the polyclinic which was given after his vaccination.

He woke up almost every hour or less. So we decides to put him and sleep with us on our bed. He managed to sleep alittle longer like 2hrs. Then started to jerk and cry again. My poor boy.

Am feeling helpless cuz i dont wanna go kkh cuz the doc there are useless but the thing is it is a public holiday so most of the PD is closed. Kayden papa found one clinic. We rushed there 15mins before it closed. Thank god. We decided to bring him to the doc bcuz he is getting warmer and i think our thermometer is not accurate at all. I never felt his hands and feet and forehead and neck so warm before.

I am worried that he will burnt his brain. I'll be a sinner.

He took the paracetmol twice and the fever did not went down so we brought him to the PD.

Reached the clinic and measures 39.5 degress. My god. Is really hot. And imagine he hot for so long already. Btw we reached the clinic at 11.40am. It closes at 12pm on public holidays.

Doc says high fever without any symptoms of vomitting or diarrhea or cough or flu is more worrying. Because it could be dengue fever or urintary infection. Otherwise could be he put dirty things into his mouth. Doc says his throat is red and swelling.

He was given med and told to monitor. If fever still persists for 2 days, have to go back and take blood test and urine test.

I pray my baobei kayden boy faster recover else he will be in pain for i dunno how long more.

He called me mama today because he needed me to carry him. I feel like crying.

I wish the one who got fever is me and not him.

Please be well my baobei kayden boy.

Papa and mama is so worried about you.

His fever subsided after taking the antibiotic and fever med during late afternoon and evening.

But at night he is warm again. So had his 2nd dose at 8.30pm again.

Now he is aslp. Please sleep well because i know you didnt have enough sleep last night at all.