Mommy Day 354

Who doesnt want to be a weekend parent whom only need to take care of bb only on weekends?

Everyday after a day of tiring work, have to spend time with bb and wash his bottles, toys and every little things is my daily routine be it weekday or weekend.

As a mommy, i dont grumble because he is my son whom i gone through painful process to have him delivered safely and even the after labour pain that torture me and that i wont forget.

I do not have someone to talk to before i go to bed. All i have is a keyboard and a screen = mobile phone.

Everyday i feel like a single mum. I rush here and there like a mad dog but nobody knows. Sometimes, i feel that i am only a human and all i want is to rest and have a good sleep. It is tough not to see the little one when u hear his cries every midnight. There is no midnight that i can sleep thru peacefully.

I know you are filial. But since i see my parents taking such good care of my boy, i wanted them to rest as much too. I wanted to treat them some nice food and just us but there isnt any day that i could accomplish that because the little one cant sit thru every meal. I wanted to be filial as well.

You have all the freedom to live like a single almost everyday. U can do things u wan, have peaceful sleep, plan ur own things, have a good meal with your mother. But what about me?

Our family is all tied down by the little one. Many things i wish to do but i cant do.

The least i could ask for is to spend time with them since its the last weekend in singapore. I dunno what will happen there. I may meet with a accident and never come back, there are many maybe's. That will be my greatest regret.

Worried about taking care of the little one alone there, who can comfort me? Little one,  please be good because i am surviving until today because of u.

Didnt want to express my thoughts but looks like nobody really understand what i am going thru.

I love you, my little one.